Just a thought

I always wish I were someone else. But not in the way that I feel everyone else does, when they want to life the life of a celebrity or royalty or even a wealthy businessman. I want to just re-do myself altogether; my mind, my heart, my soul, my blood, organs and bones. I want to just de-construct myself and my life and rewind everything to a point in time that I can grow into something and someone different, so that I end up as someone completely opposite from myself, in some completely opposite life. I think that wish rings through me at least twice a day if not more, and that maybe it’s why I never really feel like myself at all, because every ounce of the day I’m fighting back all that is truly me.